WOW all the emotions....

As I am sitting here in an empty house, kids are at my Mom's, dog is at Scott's cousin's house and Scott went out to fly his plane, I decided to blog some feelings down.
I have tears rolling down my face for many reasons, it is TOO quiet in here. I like my noisy house. OK I laughed at myself for that one! I am happy and sad all in one.
WOW did I say I miss my kids already? My heart hurts for them. I know I will be gone for a week and a half and I miss them already. Ella asked me to take her with. I told her I couldn't. As I reassured both kids, kissed them and gave them one more last smell before I told them good bye I realized what it will be like for Anna's foster mother to say good bye to Anna, so sad.
WOW I have all these emotions from happy, scared, sad to FREAKED out.
On our way to take the kids and dog to town we stopped to say goodbye to a neighbor. We let Chloe out to say "hi" to their dog and in a minute the other dog BIT Chloe on the face! So we had to take her to the vet for 3 staples to the wound and some antibiotics. She has a cone on her head! Poor John he has to "feed" her the antibiotics and take care of her with a cone on her head. I felt bad leaving her like that, like she is my baby and I just felt sad.
I am nervous as heck to get on a plane for 13 1/2 hours to Korea. But I want to see Anna so BAD I am willing to do it. I can't wait to hold her and smell her sweet baby smell.
I need to pack our stuff now. So I will just say this will be the hardest thing I will ever do in my life right now. Flying all the way to Korea, leaving our other 2 kids and the dog was hard.

BUT it will ALL BE WORTH it...... look at her sweet face.....